Thursday, March 4, 2010
Keep or Trade In
I sold our 1997 Honda Accord in October of 2009 and bought a new Honda Pilot. I felt a little guilty about buying a new car, but I drove the Accord for 12 years…it was time. I wanted another car (Accord) but the girls said they wanted to “ride up high” so I purchased the Pilot. We all love the Pilot…every time we go somewhere I say lets take the van and the girls say no, we want to ride in the Pilot. Since October I have filled up the gas tank ONCE in the van. I have put maybe 200 miles on it since October.
So I want to trade it in for a car. When I told Abbie she was fine. When I told Allie she got really upset. The van was Mommy’s car, we should keep it. I mean she went on and on how she wanted to keep the van, it reminded her of Mommy, it’s very special to us, she wanted to keep the van until she could drive etc… I didn’t have the heart to tell her that No teenager wants to drive a van. She I’m in a little bit of a predicament – do I keep the van or trade it in for a car.
Here is why I want a car…my own internal reasoning. The Pilot has been awesome this winter. If their was ever a winter where a 4wd vehicle was needed it was this current winter here in the Burgh. The Pilot is awesome but doesn’t get great gas mileage. I want to car to drive in the summer months and the Pilot for the winter months. And No, I’m not talking about a Porsche or a BMW; I’m talking about either a Honda or an Acura (the luxury Honda).
So, I know I’m being very superficial about this. Times are tough and many people are out of work and can’t even afford the essentials and here I am whining about buying a car. So I start to second myself and tell myself to stop being so damn selfish. Then the other part of me says go and do something nice for yourself… and just buy it.
My biggest fear is that Allie resents the hell out of me for trading in “Mom’s van” and buying a car. So I’m torn between the guilt of making a frivolous purchase that would make me happy or hanging onto a vehicle, that no one will drive, just to make my youngest daughter happy. It sound silly, but this is what’s going through my head…keep or trade…that’s the big question at the moment.
Inside Bill's Head -- Previously Known as (Inside the Head of a Grieving Single Dad)
In August of 2009 my wife Jennifer passed away from an Anaplastic Astrocytoma Brain Tumor. She was only 38 years old. She left me and our two little girls Abbie and Allie to continue life’s journey.
I promised her that I would NOT become angry and bitter about what happened...in order to do that I am attempting to write to express my thoughts and feelings.
This site is a place where I can express my thoughts, feelings and rants...