Tuesday, February 2, 2010
The Stupid Things that Make Me Angry...
Facebook has a status of “Widow” but not “Widower”, WHY? WTF is up with that?
I wish people would be more sensitive to the fact that some families such as mine have lost a parent. The world is best for four…and we are a family of three. The world is not built for three.
I’m still pissed…and getting more pissed all the time that I don’t dream of Jen. The other night I actually woke up from a dream that I was having about some friends from high school. I mean I had a dream about a girlfriend from high school that I haven’t seen or talked to in 20 years, but yet I don’t have my dreams of my wife. I have tried everything from thinking of nothing but Jen as I drift off to sleep to taking the opposite approach and not thinking of anything and I still don’t dream of her…frustrating!!! I need to know that she is okay wherever she is! Jen wasn’t baptized as a child – does that have anything to do with it…I don’t friggin know and it’s driving me crazy.
I feel unfulfilled. I feel like I could…should be doing more with my life. I just don’t what to do. Volunteer, teach, travel, something else…I just don’t know.
Inside Bill's Head -- Previously Known as (Inside the Head of a Grieving Single Dad)
In August of 2009 my wife Jennifer passed away from an Anaplastic Astrocytoma Brain Tumor. She was only 38 years old. She left me and our two little girls Abbie and Allie to continue life’s journey.
I promised her that I would NOT become angry and bitter about what happened...in order to do that I am attempting to write to express my thoughts and feelings.
This site is a place where I can express my thoughts, feelings and rants...