Saturday, May 15, 2010
Crossing the Pond
Tomorrow I am off to Lisbon, Portugal for a work conference. I haven't traveled across the pond since Jen was diagnosed. I usually don't get nervous about traveling, but I'm a little anxious for some reason. I think it's more about leaving the girls then its flying. I do need to get away...I need to clear my mind...not think too much if that's possible...and just clear it. Their is a huge difference between not thinking and clearing the mind.
Award for Jen
On a different note, the Executive Council of the Allegheny County Bar Association's Woman in Law Division is presenting a Special Merit Award to Jen, obviously in memoriam. The bad news is that the award is being presented on Monday and I will be in Portugal. I only found out about the award two weeks ago and my trip has been booked for six weeks. Jen's Mom is attending the reception in my absence. I'm bummed out that I won't be able to attend, but they are going to video tape the presentation so that I can see it when I return.
Overall things are going okay. Work has been very, very busy...a bit overwhelming to be honest. We (where I work) have had some people leave recently and everyone is pulling more than their share. I love being busy and when things are a bit chaotic I seem to perform my best, but the elevated stress level gets old quickly. I'm out of the "funk" I was in a couple of weeks ago...at least I think I am. After I get back from Portugal, I am going to do a couple of things...
First, I decided to do something spontaneous...at least spontaneous for me anyways. After the Flyers dramatic 0-3, come from behind win in the NHL playoffs. I called my cousin who is also a sports fanatic like me. He ordered Flyers - Canadians tickets for game five in Philadelphia, and I'm driving out for the game. I am really looking forward to it.
Second, I need to see the ocean. To quote the Counting Crows from ' A Long December' "it's been so long since I've seen the ocean, I think I should". I need to see, smell and feel the ocean...it's a special to me...it was special to Jen...it meant a lot to both of us.
Third, I hope to come back from Portugal with some answers to some things that I have been kicking around in my mind. Nothing earth shattering, but more like a ton of little things that I need to close out, address for my own sanity sake and move on.
I don't know if I will update the Blog from Portugal or not...have to wait and see...
Inside Bill's Head -- Previously Known as (Inside the Head of a Grieving Single Dad)
In August of 2009 my wife Jennifer passed away from an Anaplastic Astrocytoma Brain Tumor. She was only 38 years old. She left me and our two little girls Abbie and Allie to continue life’s journey.
I promised her that I would NOT become angry and bitter about what happened...in order to do that I am attempting to write to express my thoughts and feelings.
This site is a place where I can express my thoughts, feelings and rants...