Saturday, September 25, 2010

Okay so here is Part Two

Part Two

As I said, the summer was good, very good. We all kept busy and it was filled with non-stop activities. Well, a funny and very unexpected thing also happened over the summer…I started spending a lot of time with a certain someone special. Now, understand that this was unplanned and unexpected. Yeah, I went out on a few dates with people and let’s just say the results were very mixed. Then I started spending a lot of time with this certain someone special and things just sort of went from there.

It’s weird, those who know me well, know that I am never at a loss for words, but I am struggling with what and how much to say here. The girls have been very receptive because they already knew this person and her kids. They have played together in the past, gone to movies and have had sleepovers so things have been easy from that viewpoint. We have been taking things slow and are attempting to be as smart as possible about all of this.

A couple of things

I am NOT “naming” this person…some of you already know anyway…and some will be totally surprised. I am not naming her out of respect for her. She is also going through a divorce, which many folks don’t know about.

Here is the deal…I am happy…for the first time in a long time I feel good, I feel happy and for lack of better words I feel “alive”. I haven’t been able to say that for a while. Through the illness, the aftermath, it’s just been a while and it takes its toll on you, mentally and emotionally. I feel good about myself, about the future, about this new relationship.

This is a person that I have known for years. I will completely open an honest here…it feels good to be wanted…needed…to be happy. This past summer could have gone a number of different ways. I didn’t plan or intend for things to happen the way they did, but sometimes even, I have to forgo the plan and just wing it. I am happy people…very happy and it has everything to do with this person.

1 comment:

  1. Bill,

    You know how happy I am for you (for you both), but let me just say it again…I am really happy for you! You deserve to be happy and it feels so good to read these words…knowing how hard won they are and how much you mean them.

    I know that you had some trepidation and I am glad you chose to share this new blessing in your life. You are surrounded by people who support you and want you to be happy - please don’t worry about any “judgers”. When people judge or lash out it’s often because they are deeply insecure in themselves and it has absolutely nothing to do with you anyway.

    I think the best things in life are the ones that we never planned for, expected or even dared to imagine. This year has brought with it much love and joy for my family and I and I’m so glad to hear that it is bringing you happiness as well.

    Take Care.



Inside Bill's Head -- Previously Known as (Inside the Head of a Grieving Single Dad)

In August of 2009 my wife Jennifer passed away from an Anaplastic Astrocytoma Brain Tumor. She was only 38 years old. She left me and our two little girls Abbie and Allie to continue life’s journey.

I promised her that I would NOT become angry and bitter about what order to do that I am attempting to write to express my thoughts and feelings.

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