So it has been 5 years to the day since I last
wrote on this site…5 years…
Different people (folks that I don’t see on a
regular basis) have reached out to me asking about me…the girls…life in
general…mostly just curious how things are with me and the family.
In some ways I guess maybe I have been a little
selfish by not updating my blog. I started the blog for a couple of very
different reasons.
One, I needed an outlet…a way to let out some
steam and a way to…grieve. Two, I wanted
to let people in similar situations know that it will be okay. That Life does go on…and things WILL be okay.
Some of the people that reached out and emailed
me or messaged me via Facebook had specific questions. How did I
cope, what about the kids, what did I do when this happened…or how did I handle
this situation…etc… Their is NO right or wrong answer…honestly their
isn’t. Every person, every situation is
different…but I want people to know that it will be okay.
I vividly remember one of the doctors, during one
of Jen’s chemo sessions telling me that everything will be okay and it
infuriated me. How dare someone who
doesn’t even know me… tell me that it would be okay. In that moment…I was devastated…just thinking
about what life was going to be like.
My point is this…we are all stronger then we know…and it will be
okay….it will.
The holidays are here…and it will be very tough
for many people who have loved a lost one. I take solace in knowing that
my kids are in a very loving home. They are bigger now…older...more
independent…I still tell them that I love them and how important they are to
me. Last year Deanne officially
adopted the girls…and it was something very special for all of us.
I actually have much more to write…many things
have happened over the last five years…so I think it’s time to start blogging
again. I know this was a sort of random
thoughts and ramblings…but I do have much more to say…I hope that the folks who
are scared find the strength to keep on going…I hope that the people who are
angry with their situations find some solace…and I hope that the folks who feel
lonely know that they are not alone…and with time…it gets better….it does…I
promise…
